I need to think of an alter ego name. “meggy” isn’t cutting it and I don’t like any form of my name as it is. I think because it associates me with my family and I want nothing to do with them. Almost like a starting over. I just want a new name so bad. I also hate my past and need a new start. Hearing the name Meghan makes me cringe and my parents refused to call me any nickname because ” that wasn’t the name I was given” at 7 I asked my mom to call me “Lola” but she freaked out when I asked she said shed never call me any nickname.i went by lola until 10th grade. my nana accepted I wanted a new name and called me any name I wanted. She said It was my choice. I just cant take having any association with my mom and step dad. So it’s time to recreate myself because I have finally set myself free from my parents and it’s time to be me and I don’t give a shit what they think. All I care about is being happy. I had a long conversation with my nana the other night and she expressed how shed love me no matter who I am and what I look like and that really just set me free because her opinion is the only one that matters. It’s time to recreate myself and be the person I really want to be. I don’t care what anyone thinks honestly.